war

Jason Statham and Jet Li in a movie together?

Yes please.

you're going somewhere

This past Friday night we had Desperate at Scott and Cheryl's house. Desperate is a time to get together as His Church and really seek God through worship, prayer, prophesy, and LISTENING. While I enjoyed the time, and was able to pray and seek God, I also struggled with focus. I had so much going through my head, so many concerns, that when it came time to pray for one another I didn't even know what to ask for. So I didn't ask for anything.

Sunday morning Susie, our associate pastor's wife, walked up to our friend Derek and started talking to him close by to where I was sitting. I heard him say "yeah, I think that's Shawna". She came over and said that she had been praying for our time together that Friday night and the Lord had given her a message for someone. Derek had felt I needed prayer that night but hadn't said anything. Once Susie talked to him, he realized he was right.

The first words Susie said were "You're going somewhere under God's Authority". She said that God had told her that it was not under the heavy hand of duty or obligation, but under His hand of love. I would not be forced to go, but that I would be passionate about going. Derek confirmed he was hearing the word passion and felt God's saying it was going to be restored. I knew right then that God was speaking to me because for the past few months I have started thinking about pursuing ministry again and moving to Michigan. In June I signed a shorter lease on my apartment. Several of the obstacles "holding me back" like a reliable car and some personal debt are both going to be taken care of soon. I began to see it as an open door to start stepping out in faith and believing that it was really going to happen this time.

There has been a myriad of emotions on this journey. Excitement, passion, doubt, fear, complacency... everything from "Am I ever going to get there?" to "Do I really have to go?" I have known my whole life I have a calling on my life but it's gets tougher as I get older to believe it will truly come to fruition.

In all honesty the most important part of God's word for me was

YOU ARE GOING SOMEWHERE.

Just hearing that gave me hope. It confirmed to me that I wasn't crazy or misinformed or mistaken. I had heard Him right, and I needed to trust His timing. But the blessing of knowing that I will be going under His Authority and in His Love is also important, because why else would I bother going?? It would be a waste of time.

God is good. Not always safe, but good. A friend of mine recently sent me an email about the recent transition in his life and said

"I was overwhelmed by His love and He left me with no wiggle room."

That's exactly what it's like. There comes a point when it's so obvious that He knows what's best that you just can't argue with Him or deny Him anymore. I can't deny how He feels about me, how much He loves me, or that He knows what is best for me. I am compelled to do what He leads me to do because of His love for me, and mine for Him. It is overwhelming, but not suffocating. I wouldn't want it any other way.

Thriller hits the Phillipines

Dudes, that's a dude in that halter top. Some Phillipino Prison Warden has sick sense of humor. But at least I am entertained...

SpiderPig FULL version! (from simpsons movie)

Ok, let's try this again. I can't stop laughing!